You don't understand, Nate. Your whole life, you've been wanted. For terrible reasons, and I'm very sorry for that, I'd kill them if they showed up here for how they've treated you but I also can't relate. If you did dig around in my head you'd know how it feels when your whole life is people only enduring you because were told they had to. I've been passed around as worthless for as long as I can remember, everyone just tolerating my presence until it was someone else's turn. Until I saved the world or died trying, and it turned out to be the latter. So being told you're only dealing with me for father's sake, even with the caveat that you don't hate me, is a familiar shorthand. Somewhere along the way, I fucked up.
Probably multiple places. I know I'm difficult and that I have a complex in this regard, but I'm not happy settling for it now that there are people around who do actually like me. Even if it's beyond my comprehension why they would. At least I can admit this shit now.
...you don't actually have to like me in the long run or anything. I'm just trying not to write myself off so easily anymore. And the way you're saying you're fine is ringing some very familiar bells.
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Probably multiple places.
I know I'm difficult and that I have a complex in this regard, but I'm not happy settling for it now that there are people around who do actually like me.
Even if it's beyond my comprehension why they would.
At least I can admit this shit now.
...you don't actually have to like me in the long run or anything.
I'm just trying not to write myself off so easily anymore.
And the way you're saying you're fine is ringing some very familiar bells.