( this place is built upon the act of sex and intimacy in an almost forced sort of way. where lust and unbridled desire are favored, expected, encouraged among all, and sweetness like this is simply ok.
for nate, prior to coming here, the most he'd ever experienced had been a kiss with a woman now dead. intimacy in itself hadn't been anything he had explored or even wanted to. it's hard to when you're just trying to survive each day that comes β lay low and hope today isn't the day you're discovered. you're hunted. you're killed. his mind had been in a constant fight or flight mode that to be here β to be in a place so much more slower in terms of how to survive, it'd been jarring and he'd wanted nothing more than push back at everything and everyone here.
sometimes he feels like experiencing this β really experiencing it as one should in their life, is a means to land him into a sort of trap where he'll want to comply with this place and its expectations β not want to fight back anymore and fall into a sort of contentment that he's felt others here have within them. he doesn't want that. no matter how sweet some moments feel and yet, with the way steve touches him β takes his time with him and makes his heart flutter in ways he's rarely felt before coming here, it's hard not to. if even for just a little while.
head tipping back, the sound that leaves him when those fingers touch him from the inside is soft and surprised, bleeding into a long moan after. this part still takes him a little to get used to and he chases down any insecurities that steve might not find him worth it with being so inexperienced. steve himself isn't either, so this... this is ok. they can figure it out and move together. slow and steady, building up to something more intense. if they want.
blindly, he brushes fingers along the curve of the other man's shoulder and he lolls his head to the side, swallowing. eyes fluttering open as he looks to him with a flushed face and he smiles a bit as he nods. showing he's ok. showing that this is ok. )
Edited (not me noticing an error hours later closes my eyes) 2022-08-07 02:37 (UTC)
[ steve just follows the cues, listening to him and watching, and there's a different kind of excitement that comes with that, a slow build of desire that he ignores in favor of making sure that nate is as comfortable as he can be and that he's enjoying it. it might be too early to tell, but those are really the only important things to steve during all of this, pausing long enough to look down at him and take in all that flushed skin and whatever else he can make out in the shadows. the curve of his shoulders, that smile, the tension in his belly and his thighs.
he wonders, briefly, if they would have ever found this if they'd never contracted. if steve remained a submissive. it's difficult to tell, but he's getting distracted again.
there are better things to think about.
gently, he shifts nate a little so the angle won't be as awkward. ] Here. [ his voice is soft, bracing a hand against one of nate's knees to spread his legs wider. ] I'll try to go slow. [ it's a breathless promise, falling quiet the moment he reaches down to stroke himself a time or two. it's mostly for the lube and to have a guide, his other hand on a thigh as he pushes into nate.
the initial thrust is shallow, causing steve's breath to hitch just slightly at the feel around him, but he continues on despite that, eyes half-open to watch nate's face for any signs of unexpected discomfort. and that's all steve focuses on until he's deep inside him, hovering there over nate and not moving for the first few seconds until that's the only thing he can think to do. that he thinks they both want. maybe he'll never get used to this feeling either, being this close to someone else, being part of them, but there's care in the way he draws back and rocks forward, the rhythm slow and easy and giving nate plenty of room to dictate exactly what he wants and how he wants it. it doesn't keep steve from kissing him though, nudging at his mouth and nipping softly at his lower lip. ]
( the fact that he's only ever done this with one other person β that he's only done this a couple of times, shows in the way his face scrunches up in slight discomfort despite steve's gentle efforts. it's something he's still getting used to β that he wants to get used to with people here that he wants to do this with and he wants one of those people to be steve. he does. maybe a lot.
gentle appreciation spills from his lips in the sounds he makes as steve moves with thought and care, nate's fingers blindly grasping tight at the other man's biceps, needing to just hold onto something. thickly, he swallows, nodding at the other man's words regarding the pace he intends to set and there's the softest breath there on his lips right before a kiss is claimed from them and that breath bleeds into a quiet whimper.
softly, he cups steve's face with a hand, head tipping back and breaking their kiss for him to take a breath β to let go of the discomfort within him before he noses at the other man β at his friend and dominant here inside him. blue eyes searching steve's face, they fall shut a moment later and the sound that leaves his lips this time is still soft but more eager almost. )
Not too slow. ( he murmurs, huff of laughter just barely there on his lips so close to steve's. )
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for nate, prior to coming here, the most he'd ever experienced had been a kiss with a woman now dead. intimacy in itself hadn't been anything he had explored or even wanted to. it's hard to when you're just trying to survive each day that comes β lay low and hope today isn't the day you're discovered. you're hunted. you're killed. his mind had been in a constant fight or flight mode that to be here β to be in a place so much more slower in terms of how to survive, it'd been jarring and he'd wanted nothing more than push back at everything and everyone here.
sometimes he feels like experiencing this β really experiencing it as one should in their life, is a means to land him into a sort of trap where he'll want to comply with this place and its expectations β not want to fight back anymore and fall into a sort of contentment that he's felt others here have within them. he doesn't want that. no matter how sweet some moments feel and yet, with the way steve touches him β takes his time with him and makes his heart flutter in ways he's rarely felt before coming here, it's hard not to. if even for just a little while.
head tipping back, the sound that leaves him when those fingers touch him from the inside is soft and surprised, bleeding into a long moan after. this part still takes him a little to get used to and he chases down any insecurities that steve might not find him worth it with being so inexperienced. steve himself isn't either, so this... this is ok. they can figure it out and move together. slow and steady, building up to something more intense. if they want.
blindly, he brushes fingers along the curve of the other man's shoulder and he lolls his head to the side, swallowing. eyes fluttering open as he looks to him with a flushed face and he smiles a bit as he nods. showing he's ok. showing that this is ok. )
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he wonders, briefly, if they would have ever found this if they'd never contracted. if steve remained a submissive. it's difficult to tell, but he's getting distracted again.
there are better things to think about.
gently, he shifts nate a little so the angle won't be as awkward. ] Here. [ his voice is soft, bracing a hand against one of nate's knees to spread his legs wider. ] I'll try to go slow. [ it's a breathless promise, falling quiet the moment he reaches down to stroke himself a time or two. it's mostly for the lube and to have a guide, his other hand on a thigh as he pushes into nate.
the initial thrust is shallow, causing steve's breath to hitch just slightly at the feel around him, but he continues on despite that, eyes half-open to watch nate's face for any signs of unexpected discomfort. and that's all steve focuses on until he's deep inside him, hovering there over nate and not moving for the first few seconds until that's the only thing he can think to do. that he thinks they both want. maybe he'll never get used to this feeling either, being this close to someone else, being part of them, but there's care in the way he draws back and rocks forward, the rhythm slow and easy and giving nate plenty of room to dictate exactly what he wants and how he wants it. it doesn't keep steve from kissing him though, nudging at his mouth and nipping softly at his lower lip. ]
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gentle appreciation spills from his lips in the sounds he makes as steve moves with thought and care, nate's fingers blindly grasping tight at the other man's biceps, needing to just hold onto something. thickly, he swallows, nodding at the other man's words regarding the pace he intends to set and there's the softest breath there on his lips right before a kiss is claimed from them and that breath bleeds into a quiet whimper.
softly, he cups steve's face with a hand, head tipping back and breaking their kiss for him to take a breath β to let go of the discomfort within him before he noses at the other man β at his friend and dominant here inside him. blue eyes searching steve's face, they fall shut a moment later and the sound that leaves his lips this time is still soft but more eager almost. )
Not too slow. ( he murmurs, huff of laughter just barely there on his lips so close to steve's. )