Sweetheart, I will do the absolute best I can manage for you, but there hasn't been any real 'self' to worry about in a long time. I don't keep encouraging you to engage with your mom because I don't care about you, I keep pushing it because you deserve - and most people need - emotional connection, and I can't.
( there's a lot of conflicting emotions felt in reading that, so rather than respond back, all that's left is a sort of READ equivalent to the message. )
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you don't have to worry. you're not my father.
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