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[overconfidently]

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[overconfidently]

he also didn't like my coffee when i made it for him. guess i need to work on that.

[notrosecolored]

Or he can learn to make his own coffee.

[overconfidently]

i was trying to be nice.

( he also wants to learn things. )

we might actually be looking for a more permanent place too. somewhere that isn't the apartments. not sure where or when yet.

( steve had asked him if he had a preference between the up and down and while the up is safer? the down has his father and wade soon, so. he's not sure. )

[notrosecolored]

[ Why would you - actually go ahead and bother if you want, he's uncomfortable with this whole conversation and going to be POLITE and non-committal dammit. ]

The apartments are pretty limited if you're trying to make more than a couple of people work.

[overconfidently]

( dad please. )

i don't know what it's like to have a home. i'm not sure i want to consider anything that here? but i don't know. it's more than i've ever had. more than i thought i'd have. i want normal things. i want to know what it's like.

[notrosecolored]

Here is probably as good an opportunity as you're going to get for a while. Go with it as far as you can.

[overconfidently]

it's difficult because it feels like i'm giving in? to this place and what it wants from us. i feel like i'm always arguing with myself.

[notrosecolored]

Resisting what you want because it's happening within a big picture wrong isn't useful.

[overconfidently]

if i wasn't here, i wouldn't have met you or jean like i have. i wouldn't have met wade or others either. not like this.

[notrosecolored]

You wouldn't have.

[overconfidently]

thanks. for telling me by the way. if this midnighter guy gives you any trouble, i'll deal with him.

[notrosecolored]

I appreciate that, a lot.

[ Does Scott have any concerns? No. ]

[overconfidently]

( oh he figures scott wouldn't actually call on him, but. a kid can dream. )

are things ok with you? aside from packing and getting a place for yourself and whatever stress that involves.

[notrosecolored]

Yeah. Most of the chaos is around me, but not directly impacting me.

[overconfidently]

yeah. i feel the same. i've had to shut things off lately. feeling them i mean. it's just a lot lately.

[notrosecolored]

That's a pretty standard coping method for me. It's a bad one.

[overconfidently]

if i don't, i get overwhelmed with everyone else's things. sometimes i feel like a sponge. absorbing everything from everyone else.

i like how you know it's a bad coping method yet still do it.

[notrosecolored]

Shutting out everyone else's shit is actually smart.

It's complicated. It works. I want more for you.

[overconfidently]

( oh.. )

there's something i want. but i'm not sure if i should.

[notrosecolored]

You definitely should.

[overconfidently]

i want to spend time with you and jean. together.

[notrosecolored]

Jean and I are still working on how to spend time together, but I'm sure we can work something out.

[overconfidently]

( he's honestly nervous to ask because he's still trying to figure out his relationship with them both. )

it's not urgent or anything. i just thought it might be nice some day.

[notrosecolored]

We'd both enjoy it.

[overconfidently]

( oof. catch him smiling a little at his phone. )

me too. i want to get to know you both.